Yesterday morning was beautiful and finally having a full release from my doctor (okay, as long as I take it slow) I scooted into the seat. It had been almost a year since my last ride. There was some awkwardness settling in, a strangeness at finding a groove, blisters arrived much too soon, and as far as taking it slow, well, my shoulder and bicep let me know it wasn't time to fully bust through. The only disappointment, while rolling out of the driveway, was my IPod was dead and my music isn't loaded on my phone so, I headed out on this return ride with only my thoughts.
So many 'things' have come up over the last several weeks. Memories, including ones long forgotten, current 'things' going on, am I enough 'things, just a whole lot of funky 'things'. You know those 'things' which, hide themselves in the subconscious and, for whatever strange reason, run out shouting, "Surprise!" and it gets you every time.
Leaving the driveway left would be up hill, right down hill, I chose right. Pushing a few hard cranks on the wheels, I stretched forward and let the speed take over hoping the loud rush of wind would, if not drown out the mind chatter would at least blow it away for a space of time. What happened was most interesting. With each curve, twist, and turn taken I noticed my shadow and the shadow of the chair. Seamlessly the shadows moved with me, aligning with light, like perfect dancing partners.
As I continued to notice this fluid dance, I became increasingly aware that my shadow parts are no more separate from me, their source, than my light is separate from me. And, here's the kicker, the real shout, "Surprise!"; with as uncomfortable as I have been lately with these shadow 'things', I am just as uncomfortable with my light 'things'. In fact, I tend to hide from my light as much as I hide my shadow.
The parts are never greater than the sum. And it's all the parts, light and shadow, which make up the whole, but when light and shadow are given the okay to dance their dance...wowsers, magnificence is magnified.
Thoughts and ideas came forth about why and how to meet these surfacing subconscious 'things'. There is purpose in the, "Surprise!" and to allow the integration of light and shadow to take center stage as they simply, seamlessly know how to dance.
Dimming our light mutes our shadow!
Dimmed light and muted shadow dulls our brilliance!
So many 'things' have come up over the last several weeks. Memories, including ones long forgotten, current 'things' going on, am I enough 'things, just a whole lot of funky 'things'. You know those 'things' which, hide themselves in the subconscious and, for whatever strange reason, run out shouting, "Surprise!" and it gets you every time.
Leaving the driveway left would be up hill, right down hill, I chose right. Pushing a few hard cranks on the wheels, I stretched forward and let the speed take over hoping the loud rush of wind would, if not drown out the mind chatter would at least blow it away for a space of time. What happened was most interesting. With each curve, twist, and turn taken I noticed my shadow and the shadow of the chair. Seamlessly the shadows moved with me, aligning with light, like perfect dancing partners.
As I continued to notice this fluid dance, I became increasingly aware that my shadow parts are no more separate from me, their source, than my light is separate from me. And, here's the kicker, the real shout, "Surprise!"; with as uncomfortable as I have been lately with these shadow 'things', I am just as uncomfortable with my light 'things'. In fact, I tend to hide from my light as much as I hide my shadow.
The parts are never greater than the sum. And it's all the parts, light and shadow, which make up the whole, but when light and shadow are given the okay to dance their dance...wowsers, magnificence is magnified.
Thoughts and ideas came forth about why and how to meet these surfacing subconscious 'things'. There is purpose in the, "Surprise!" and to allow the integration of light and shadow to take center stage as they simply, seamlessly know how to dance.
Dimming our light mutes our shadow!
Dimmed light and muted shadow dulls our brilliance!
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