It's odd too, that it seems to be in all areas of my life that the flow has trickled. Are you just ever out of sorts, feeling like you're on the cusp of some new life chapter but you're not really sure? Why won't it go, flow, reveal, refill with unquestionable evidence? Surrendering to it, whatever it is, I decided to step into a state of retreat, solitude, true down time...so much so I've up and left town, took myself to a lovely resort deep in a Sedona canyon...waiting for the flow to return or waiting for the reservoir to fill. Actually, not sure what I'm waiting for or what's coming or in what form but I really am having a difficult time emerging into life let alone the new year...but I am ever prayerfully hopeful the reservoir will fill.
So, what does my mixed up, catwampusness have to do with A Course In Love, absolutely nothing, except my mind and heart, the reservoir, is always longing for more understanding of love. Yesterday, on the 7 hour drive from my little country town to this spectacular place in Sedona something about love came to me.
Through suffering, at any degree, love can rise and expand but only if we allow it to be so. This is of course by choice, choice of simply allowing. For through suffering, and more easily so, hate can also rise and expand in bitterness, anger, depression. However, an added bonus in this space of allowing love to rise and expand, peace becomes present.
Wow, this was such a beautiful learning, I suppose one I've obviously been learning over the years of loss, which loss is suffering and also in the suffering of a broken heart. So I peacefully breathe it in, this new learning, awakening, filling of the reservoir.